a little bitch.

i have this terrible feeling inside. it’s been eating at my since last week, and i can’t make it go away.

i’ve been losing a lot of sleep thinking about my actions in the last week, and can’t help but feel that i’ve not only broken so many goals/standards i set for myself in 2012, but went further backwards and became less of a person.

it is true - in the face of tribulation your true colors shine. 

a friend of mine once asked me “steph, can you think for yourself” (a question that was asked when I was a junior in high school), and I simply responded “what? of course I can” in a defensive “non-thinking” tone. how little did I know how right she was about me. I get swayed, convinced, manipulated so easily…it’s almost like a joke.

“Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved.” - Helen Keller